The bed is a torture chamber.

I have never been in so much pain in my life.  I feel like absolute hell.  It's a horrible cycle.  I can't sleep because i am in pain and I am in pain because I can't sleep.  And all of this is a result of going for a hike three weeks ago.  This pain is so deep in my body.  It's been absolute hell... i can't relax and spent about 200 hundred dollars and then some at the chiropractor.  Sometimes it seems like the easy way to quit but i know i can't.  The bed is like a torture chamber.  No matter how many times i put the fucking pad on different parts of my body the pain still resides.  It's okay to cry.  It's okay to feel like shit.  It's okay to want to give up.  It's okay that other people don't understand what it's like to have pain so deep you want to die.  It's okay that I can't go out at night.  It's okay that i feel left out and outcast.  It's okay that i was in car accident and my shoulders hurt like fucking hell.  It's been hell the past few months. Between trying different natural remedies to sleep, the car accident, & now this stupid hike.  I tell people what's it like and they tell me to go to the doctor.  The doctor won't do a fucking thing for me.  Sometimes it's so hard to hold on.  I pray to got that this pain subsides and i can feel the light again.  Please God help me.